Some people were concerned when they found out that I’ve moved to New Creation Church and listen to Ps Joseph Prince preaching. I can tell from the look on their face without waiting for words out of their mouth. Ps Prince teaching about grace shocked / shake lots of people i guess. How astray is he?
In 2009, I came to New Creation Church (NCC) which at that time was still in The Rock Auditorium, Suntec. Well, I never heard of this church before. I saw Pastor Prince on stage, dressed in black with face that reminded me on Stefan Salvatore (one of the vampire brothers in The Vampire Diaries Series). I was trying to ignore everything he said cause it doesn’t seemed right according to what I have heard and learned as christian in the past 10 years.
At the beginning of 2010, my cousin came to Singapore to find a job. So, i invited him to my current home church. He told me that he felt dry spiritually and in need of a church that are not so focused on building a new venue. We went to some churches and he is interested in NCC, so we’ll accompany each other every week. He accompanied me to church in the afternoon and I accompanied him to NCC for night service.
As usual i always fell a sleep during service in NCC, I can hardly wait for dinner after service. That happened every week, but once upon a time I was super awake so I listened to Pastor Prince preached somehow.
He said something that fitted my condition, i was dried too like my cousin – but I ignored that. I realized that in the past 5 years, I was in comma spiritually and all activities were merely routines.
Serving, morning prayers, bible study, encouraging people to church, helping those who distress – gave me a little joy but not much of a help to this spiritual comma.
Pastor Prince shared about 2 things:
a. I am saved by grace and my salvation remain in grace. It’s not by my hard earned work, grace is undeserved and unmerited favor.
b. Condemnation kills
At that night, I realize the root of the problem that caused me spiritual dryness then comma in the past 5 years. Turns out it was CONDEMNATION. I tried to do a lot of things to make myself worthy in his presence, as if the price HE paid at the cross is not enough.
Pastor Prince taught us that the price HE paid on the cross super exceed the debts/sins we have/did. When i heard of it, my spirit was set free from the chain of condemnation, and peace starts to flow in my heart again. Pastor Prince might dress in dark most of the time, but his preaching gave me light.
My cousin decided to return to Indonesia because he was not able to find suitable job here. I have decided to move permanently to NCC although it means going to church alone, because I have many friends in my former church already.
Five years has passed since I moved to NCC, do I regret?
I believe that Lord has a reason in sending my cousin to Singapore for 3 months, I was set free from spiritual comma and walking with a new hope.
Am I an ignorant, lazy, living a sinful lifestyle in purpose because of this Grace Revolution teaching?
Honestly, I don’t think I changed to that extreme. Although Ps Prince made me realized that doing good does not increase His love nor His grace towards me, and my lack does not make Him love me less (reminded me on this song by “The Pretenders – I’ll Stand by you” lyrics: “…Nothing you confess would make me love you less…”).
I am just no longer proud of myself when I did something good.
I am just no longer under endless condemnation when I did something wrong.
I still apologize to people when i made a mistake.
I still prayed to God in daily-basis, sing, care, (serve although it was not as often as many years ago).
I am constantly reminded here that:
I am a human being, i may change anytime but HE remain constant. (listen to One Thing Remains by Jesus Culture)
I am still not perfect but I can soak in His righteousness, because I am made to be righteous of God in Christ and He is changing me from inside out. (listen to Inside Out by Hillsong)
He loves me. He wants me to live an abundant life and freed from brokenhearted, defeat and bound.
and so many more…
To be honest, I don’t see anything wrong when the teachings point us to Jesus goodness, perfection, love, power, victory, grace, mercy and so many others.
It is still every single person’s journey in life to have intimacy in his/her walk with Jesus, no matter where is the church and who is the pastor.